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I have to admit that 3 months plus of university life and surviving independently has largely impact my personality and my principles in life. I've always wanted to go abroad or anywhere else away from my home to try to live on my own and my one way ticket was education. Lucky enough with my questionable STPM results, I was offered a place in a local higher instution in Malacca. My dream of surviving an independent life came true, well almost did. Instead of surviving, it rendered my life-long-principles-in-life to null. What I'm trying to say here is, I came hoping to break free from dependence and surviving with whatever perceptions I've acquired from life and instead, I landed with an insight on how the real world is being defined, the hard way.
I've met a number of different characters and personalities where the majority are west malaysians of course and east malaysians being the minority. However, neither east nor west exhibits any difference from how we interact, we still talk, humour, laugh, joke and argue about the same way any other humans do regardless of geographical boundaries. All those times I've always had my thoughts fixed on a mindset that human personality and characters are directly linked to a country or location. For instance, our society have always generalized Singapore as kiasu or kiasi (meaning scared of losing in english), the truth to that fact is we are much more similar in more ways than we ever realized. I have to admit that I too had my perceptions on others and soon found out that I was not that different from them even though I've been trying hard to live my way of life here as I did when I was in Kuching.
Our given assignments along with the closing deadline and working under pressure forced me to portray a totally different personality against the principles in life which I've been "building" over the past decade.
It shook me. It shook me hard.
The revelation was too much. I guess what they say was right, when pressure sets in, our personality changes. That moment showed me the ugly real world out there isn't actually our wonderland we all hoped for. It's a dog-eat-dog world. In order to be successful, it is inevitable to break off from our comfort zone and put what we believed in aside and make necessary sacrifices. I digress.
I refuse to let my life governed by what the majority think is necessary to achieve their so-called "bill gates" status. I have changed, I know. But my personality change has made me understood a whole lot more about life compared to before.
I'm much more than that. We all are.
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3 Comments:
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oh well. i guess i agree with you. the people u mix with, the environment,the place we're in, really can change us..BIG TIME
just an advice, dont get too mean will ya? especially to me!!!ok? saying "no" to ur friend that was "inneed" really makes me think ure changed!
By 
NuruL Ash, at
8:26 AM
We don't get to a place we don't know, and let people we don't know, change our self that we know. Of course, we meet different people we don't know all around places we don't know. But KNOW one thing, we are there to change the the way we see things, we interpret things, and finally, understand the difference. I know you. And definitely I know you're strong somewhere =) Be positive, we can't expect things to appear the way we know all the time. It's the differences that contribute the fun and surprises =)
By RuffleSeed, at
9:11 PM
hey dude..it is alrite to be selfish at times when it comes to things that will shape our future...esp studies..so relax k
By wei khee, at
10:21 PM
