Insignificance

Thursday, August 31

Happy Independence Day to all fellow beings bounded by the federal laws under the Malaysian Constitution.. No, seriously... Happy 49th Independence Day to all Malaysians..

I've always got this notion that the government has this odd way of channelling funds for causes that seemed obsolete or futile for their fruits. However I've started to realize that the efforts of our past leaders have proved otherwise. Racial intergration and unity is what it's all about in moulding the diversed country of Malaysia. Under the 9th Malaysian plan our Pak Lah have stepped up in plans to focus on human development to curb the ailments of society should we be reminded on the incident of the 13th of May. Being a university student myself, I've seen that racial discrimination still does exists, but I'm glad that over the decades it has fallen below par inversed with racial unity.

I'm truly proud to be a Malaysian..

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Dezmond sprouts at 8/31/2006 11:43:00 AM | Permalink

Saturday, August 26

my new baby

As said form my last post, finally got my compaq notebook pc.. my new baby. I hereby declare myself back to civilisation.

Currently posting this entry using my new notebook at MITC (Melaka International Trade Centre) with the free wireless broadband network.

1 more day for lab experiment, 2 days after for Mid term computer programming exam and 3 more days left till the one week Independence Day break.

Life is good...

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Dezmond sprouts at 8/26/2006 07:29:00 PM | Permalink

Tuesday, August 22

mercury rising... sorta

I think that I've developed an obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) in my assignments and reports... come to think of it, I disagree. Many will ask me "why discussion write so long?" "why ur comment so long?" "No use one lah, teacher won't look at it one..". As if that extra mile that I took was futile and meaningless, but I digress.

Ever since secondary school, I've been having this tardy habit of not completing my exercises and projects and delaying them till the last minute and not giving 120% of my efforts on them. Subsequently, it shaped into what I'm in now.. I guess now it's time to make amends for years of impudence for initiative, and I can't see aything wrong with giving all my efforts into doing a task. I never thought of myself of being kiasu (fear of being losing) simply for the fact that I know what kiasu means.

Things in the dorm here are so tensed up I can't stand the strain... it's almost as if I'm in one of those reality TV shows like "Apprentice" or "The Amazing race" where conflict arises with "I don't hate you, but u won't get a christmas card from me..." kinda scenes (minus the gorgeous hosts and the annoying trailing cameras that is).

On different note, I'm getting my compaq laptop this week and I can't wait to load it up with songs, softwares and games just to bring me back to sanity.

I'll be posting an entry right after I get my laptop, so check back alrite guys.. till then

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Dezmond sprouts at 8/22/2006 12:23:00 PM | Permalink

Wednesday, August 9

life and death are despicable

I'm sad and griefly crushed during class last afternoon for a phone call.. I was in class when my cousin, kim called weeping in distress saying that my aunt's condition is not well and doctors say she might "go" anytime that afternoon in the emergency ward.. 30 mins after that call, I got an sms from kim, my aunt was gone. Apparently, she had similar symptoms as my mom 4 years back, both surgeries were successful and undergoing chemotherapy treatment. However fate finally took its toll on them both at the last moment from the despicable epitomy of all ailments, cancer.

of all the population of the human race, why does such mishap have to befall upon me? personal conflicts over a small matter, and now this whole sudden crap? She treats me like her son and cares for me while my mom wasn't there for me, she cares for my well being and I can't be there for her during her last breath? Sometimes life is really unfair and the thing that prevents us from breaking down is the constant support system we get from friends and helping hands around us, NOT god. Nevertheless, this isn't the case for me anymore. Studying in malacca alone, having to go through this emotional turbulence with nothing to hold on to is unbearable, anytime I might end up losing my sanity, all for being what I am. I'm a person that takes into account for what comes out of my mouth and assume what MIGHT come out from people's mouth before I talk. This gives people the impression that I'm vulnerable and unfortunately deems me fit for the word "sensitive". I never knew how fragile my emotions are till recently.

There's an expression, "time heals everything". Let's hope that it is more to an actual manifestation rather than a mere expression.

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Dezmond sprouts at 8/09/2006 02:23:00 PM | Permalink