Insignificance

Thursday, August 7

I'm very aware of my absence in the blogging community and also very much aware of the decreasing traffic visits to my blog. However, during the past months I might say that I took a hiatus, but that isn't the case. If I said procrastinating, that might be true. I guess the real reason I've realized just recently is that, I have nothing. Nothing significant enough to drive my mind to blog about. Nothing as in the very being of humanity. I have nothing. And no, this isn't the case of some depressive state where I try to justify how pathetic my life is.

My interest in blogging is going on a downfall, admittedly saying. Simply because my thoughts are empty, and I have nothing substantial to blog about other than the bits and pieces of my daily encounters.

I've always considered my life as being simple and happy. Happy in the sense that I have no regrets and fortunately no life-altering decisions that I've regretted (well, I might have made one life-altering decision, but I never regretted it). Ironically, it was this morning in class, a usual boring Technocrat Communication lecture as En. Aziz was on the topic of Perceptions in subtopic of Recalling, when he asked,

"Can you think of the last time u were happy?"

That question struck me like a BUS, and subsequently drove enough force inside to push me into writing this entry.

My mind was a complete blank as I tried hard to recall, for a millisecond there I felt as though the whole class was empty and I was the only one in solitude in that moment of emptiness. Seriously.

I could not recall any happy moments in my life, and that question wasn't even intended to be that profound as En. Aziz was just trying to show how perceptive statements made was recalled. It was then I realized that I haven't been happy for quite a while, truly, truly happy for that matter.

So, what about you now?

are you happy?

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