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Thursday, February 21

Pink - Nobody knows



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 Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me
That I sometimes cry
If I could pretend that I'm asleep
When my tears start to fall
I peek out from behind these walls
I think nobody knows
Nobody knows no

Nobody likes
Nobody likes to lose their inner voice
The one I used to hear before my life
Made a choice
But I think nobody knows
No no
Nobody knows
No

Baby
Oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I've lost my way back home
I think nobody knows no
I said nobody knows
Nobody cares

It's win or lose not how you play the game
And the road to darkness has a way
Of always knowing my name
But I think nobody knows
No no
Nobody knows no no no no

Baby
Oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I've lost my way back home
And oh no no no no
Nobody knows
No no no no no no

Tomorrow I'll be there my friend
I'll wake up and start all over again
When everybody else is gone
No no no

Nobody knows
Nobody knows the rhythm of my heart
The way I do when I'm lying in the dark
And the world is asleep
I think nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me
Me

Never really paid attention to the lyrics till this morning when I plugged it in my ears on my way to class. Fate unfolded itself to me recently and showed me a lot of things about myself with the people around me, and this song was in the moment and struck a thin chord in me. I thank you tinq, nurul, ken, hoe, wei khee, and sully for knowing and I'm deeply sorry to all those for not. I'll elaborate no more.

Indeed, the road that leads to darkness has a way of always knowing my name.

Every single day, I've always wondered why. I guess nobody knows.

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Dezmond sprouts at 2/21/2008 12:50:00 PM | Permalink


Thursday, December 13

Snow Patrol - Run


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I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

(Instrumental)

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear, my voice
I'll be right beside you, dear

The lyrics are just divine, it's one of my favourite songs in my walkman phone and I listen to it almost everyday. When I just need some space to get away to, I'll put this song on and close my eyes.

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Dezmond sprouts at 12/13/2007 02:13:00 PM | Permalink


Tuesday, October 16

Natalie Imbruglia - Glorious

Walking down the Frith Street
Dawn is creeping up on me
Some girls tears in a taxi
Five o'clock shadows drinking coffee

So this is what it feels like
This is how it feels, now I'm finally smiling on the inside
This is what it looks like
This is how it looks from the outside staring in

And it's glorious just to laugh like us
And the world will turn, it'll never stop
'Cause I've got nothing to hide
And we've got nothing to lose, oh yeah

And it's glorious, and it's all I see
On a day like this you know it's meant to be
Now i've got nothing to find
And I've got nothing to lose but you
And it's glorious

Drinking wine back in my house
Remember someone said your name
I somehow lost the conversation
I've fallen a million miles away

So this is what it feels like
This is how it feels when you're finally walking on the inside
This is what it looks like

This is how it looks from the outside staring in

And it's glorious just to laugh like us
And the world will turn, it'll never stop
'Cause I've got nothing to hide
And we've got nothing to lose, oh yeah

And it's glorious, and it's all I see
On a day like this you know it's meant to be
'Cause I've got nothing to hide
And I've got nothing to lose but you

Keep wanting a little, a little more
Keep walking, keep walking
Keep getting a little, a little more
Keep running, keep running

Mmmmmm, walking down the Frith Street...

And it's glorious, just to laugh like us
And the world will turn, will never, never stop
'Cause I've got nothing to hide
And we've got nothing to lose, oh yeah

And it's glorious, and it's all I see
On a day like this I know it's meant to be
'Cause I've got nothing to find
And I've got nothing to lose but you
And it's glorious

The first time I heard this song, the lyric struck a chord in me. It was all that I ever wanted, to know how it feels like smiling on the inside and to be able to truly laugh on the outside. As melodramatic as I sound, the thought of being yourself with nothing to lose and and nothing to hide is indeed, truly glorious.

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Dezmond sprouts at 10/16/2007 11:42:00 AM | Permalink


Sunday, March 18

Snow Patrol - Chocolate



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This could be the very minute
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home

With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25

This is the straw, final straw in the
Roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time

You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer

Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words

What have I done it's too late for that
What have I become truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask...this time

I got this song from the movie "The Last Kiss" and the moment I heard it, I knew it was from Snow Patrol.

Never do something that you'll regret with the one you love.

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Friday, December 22




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We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?


When I heard this song, my untapped tune receptors start sending out impulses affecting every bit of my emotional being. I just love this song. Owing all to nurul.

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Dezmond sprouts at 12/22/2006 02:19:00 PM | Permalink


Thursday, November 2




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Full moon sways

Gently in the night of one fine day

On my way

Looking for one moment with my dear

Full moon waves

Slowly on the surface of the lake

You are there

Smiling in my arms for all those years

What a fool

I don't know about tommorow

What it's like to be aaaaaah

I was fool

Couldn't let myself to go

Even though I feel the end

All the affair

Floating like a bird on her wings

You are there

Smiling in my arms for all those years

What a fool

I don't know about tommorow

What it's like to be aaaaaah

I was fool

Couldn't let myself to go

Even though I feel the end

Full moon sways

Gently in the night of one fine day

You are there

Smiling in my arms for all those years


This song was repeatedly being played on my roomate's laptop and eventually I started liking it. Talking about contagious interests, haha.

Being a big time anime fan my roomate was, he got this track off from a japanese anime called Beck and played it for days. I mean DAYS. No, I'm not talking about the Beck which installs itself into our hard drive with every previous versions of Windows Media Player for means of publicity. I'm talking about the Japanese Anime Beck with the mainstream flavour of guitars and drums, u know the deal. It's something about the transition of a kid with a lousy teenager life into the real world of Rock, and ultimately changed his life.

Download the anime here. Enjoy!

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Dezmond sprouts at 11/02/2006 07:14:00 PM | Permalink


Thursday, March 17


It was just another story written on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on the bedroom floor

There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know

Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall?

I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know

It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score...

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Sunday, December 12



When you're all alone
And you need a light
Someone to guide you
Through the night
Just remember that
I am here
To hold you close and
Dry your tears
Oh, ooh

And just when you thought
You were falling
But you know I'll always
Be right there

When you're all alone
And you need a friend
Someone to help you
To the end
When you need someone
To catch you when you fall
I'll be there through it all
Oh, oh

'Cause just when you thought
You were losing
But you know
I'll always be right there

And I'll be there
Through the good times
And the bad
And we'll be there
For each other
'Cause you're the best friend
I've ever had

And just when you thought
You were falling
But you know
I'll always be right there
Oh, ooh whenever you need me
I'll always be right there.

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Thursday, December 2


And the earth spins round while the people fall down
And the world stands still not a sound (not a sound)

There is love
There is love
To be found
In the worst way
In the worst way
In the worst way

It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
I wish i was
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the most fuzz

From a little shell at the bottom of the sea
With the earth and the moon and the sun around me
But the world fell down with some people still around

There is love
There is love
To be found
With the gods all gone and the souls making sound
In the worst way
In the worst way
In the worst way

It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
I wish i was
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the most fuzz

From a little shell at the bottom of the sea
With the earth and the moon and sun around me

There is love
There is love
There is love

It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
I wish i was
It's the buzz
It's the buzz
It's the buzz

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Friday, October 15


Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you’re bleeding

No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy
But I’m not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don’t know what it’s like
What it’s like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life


*this song somewhat reminds me of my own life.. indeed.. welcome to my life*

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Sunday, October 10

Ashlee Simpson - Shadow


I was six years old
When my parents ran away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door
Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me

(chorus)
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me

All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life and always second best
Oh, I love you now 'cause now I realize
That it's safe outside to come alive in my identity

So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally be
Don't feel sorry

Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Oh, my life is good
I've got more than anyone should
Oh, my life is good
And the past in the past

I was living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
I'm living in a new day
I'm living it for me
And now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally be
Don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me

Living in, living in, living in the shadow
Living in, living in, living in a new day

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Thursday, September 30

Switchfoot - Meant to live

Fumbling his confidence
And wond'ring why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's meant for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

(chorus)
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?

We were meant to live

We were meant to live

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Wednesday, June 9

The Calling's Our Lives

Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've gotta believe that
There's a reason we're here
Yeah, there's a reason we're here

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts and fill up the emptiness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?
Yeah, is it not worth the risk?

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

We can't go on
Thinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside

Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Can we get it right?
Yeah, well can we get it right?

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Because these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

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Tuesday, June 8

Hoobastank's The Reason

i'm not a perfect person.
there are many things i wish i didnt do
but i continue learning.
i never meant to do those things to you.
and so i have to say before i go, that i just want you to know

i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new, and the reason is you

i'm sorry that i hurt you, its something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through, i wish that i could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears, thats why i need you to hear

i'm not a perfect person, i never meant to do those things to you
and so i have to say before i go that i just want you to know

i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new, and the reason is you
i've found a reason to show a side of me you didnt know
a reason for all that i do, and the reason is you

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